Becoming Katie Butterfly

"To my abuser: The time has come to say goodbye. I have held onto the pain and hurt for far too long now. I've let the memories of what you did to me so long ago take a toll on my mental, physical and sexual health. But, now it's time to let it go and move forward. You see, I was such an ugly caterpillar for so long after what happened and I finally started to come out of my dark cocoon and get my wings. But, something is holding me back from truly becoming that Butterfly. It's me! Holding onto the ugly past and giving you the power I swore I'd never do again. And I refuse to live in the past anymore. What happened to me was horrible and should never have happened, but it did and there is nothing I can do to change it. All I can do now take the lessons and apply it to my life now and say "goodbye past, hello lovely present and future." -BecomingKatieButterfly

I've been trying to work on my self care and give myself the love and care I deserve. I haven't been sleeping well, at all. My doctor wants me to have a sleep study done to see if we can figure out the last 2% of why I'm not quite coming out of my last major episode. Tomorrow I'm scheduled to meet with someone in sleep medicine and go from there. In the mean time I'm working harder on my self care, and being good to myself. Today I have been enjoying watching my Monk, smelling my lovely candles and a yummy smoothie. Hoping to get some answers tomorrow. And that's where I'm at right now. Xoxo, Katie Butterfly

If I have learned anything from speaking up, not letting the silence eat me alive and owning my story is that yes, it is so empowering. I'm on quite a journey to taking my life back. Owning it. I have my good days and I have my bad days, it's all a part of the process, the journey to becoming Katie Butterfly. This year is all about healing, growing and learning to put the past in the past and live for the moment and better my future.  Everyone has a story. Tell your story. Own your story. Don't ever let anyone keep you from speaking the truth and being who you are meant to be. Let's all strive to be better people. Xoxo, Katie Butterfly