Becoming Katie Butterfly

My friend Jess is always getting me excited about things that excite me, especially this thing called life. And I've been trying to figure out what to blog about... So here it is.... 😊 Tomorrow I've been married to my best friend for two months. THAT EXCITES ME! Going to the Porcupine Mountains... Camping and spending valuable time with family. THAT EXCITES ME! Doing my different art projects. THAT EXCITES ME! Realizing I'm a beautiful Butterfly. THAT REALLY EXCITES ME! My job at the library REALLY EXCITES ME! My fearless sisters and friends/family. They really excite me! Life in general really excites me! How about you.... What REALLY EXCITES YOU? Love and hugs Katie Butterfly

You know what really ticks me off?  When society only bothers to talk about mental illness and how important it is to talk about is when someone famous is brought to the world's attention. What about the rest of us? Don't we matter? Well, I guess I will have to be our voice.  Yes, you sitting at home because you have no where else to go, Yes, you the tired mom at home trying to manage everything AND get outta bed. Yes, you the one at your job with you smile on your face and no one knows how each day is a struggle to get up. You all matter!  I'm one of the ones that used to sit at home without anything to live for. Lived a good part of my part living in and out of hospitals. Periods of me not taking my meds. Yes, my name is Katie and I have Borderline Personality Disorder. What it is:  Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships  characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization a...

I was reading some of my old journals. I can only read so much at a time without getting depressed or triggered. The intense emotions of BPD and daily wanting to kill myself.... I'm so glad I'm not in that place now... But, at the same time I wish I could do something to help those that have that intense desire to off themselves. To tell them, yes, it does get better. It took me like 10 years but it did happen.  Don't listen to the voices in your head. People care. You are worth it. Killing yourself is not the answer. If you don't stick around you will never see just how amazing life is. And just what amazing things you are capable of! Just keep swimming, ok? Katie