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Olivia Benson.

So, I'm spending my afternoon watching SVU. I really wish I had an Olivia Benson in my life. Some days I wish I could report what happened to me and have Liv there to support me. But, in real life, Olivia is not here, and I can't report my assault. Even if it was chargeable, the statute of limitations is probably up. And even more than that. It wouldn't go anywhere. All that would happen is I would get dragged through the mud and made to feel things that I never want to feel again.

At the same time, I wish I knew if I had options. Especially since I'm probably not his only victim.

According to the circuit court he got a young girl pregnant. Well, at least he married her! 

Probably the same girl he had the nerve to come to our apartment with. Thank God he hasn't done that since.
I just want some form of justice, my words being validated. That I'm not crazy. That yes, he did rape me. 

I may never get that in my life.

Katie





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