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The return of SVU

I'm excited for the return of SVU but a little nervous too. Last year's season took me through so much. Coming to terms with my own assault and watching my fictional hero go through it. It was hard.

I'm not sure I'm ready for it. The possibility of being triggered again. But the truth is, anything will trigger me, so why not watch a show I love? 

I have time to decide. I won't be able to watch the first episode until next week when I get back from camping.

I hope one of my friends can tell me whether I should be able to watch it?

Stay strong!
Katie Marie 

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  1. AnonymousSeptember 23, 2014 at 9:26 AM

    I'll try to watch on computer, but that will be later anyway, I think? love you! MA

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