Becoming Katie Butterfly

Yes, this may come as a surprise (please note my sarcasm) but I just love books. My mom read to us as kids, and ever since I learned to read in first grade, I just devoured book after book. They got me through boredom, depression, and, everything! One summer I think I read over 10,000 pages.  I always loved a good mystery series. It started out with The Mandie Books, later on The Nancy Drew series and now today Annie's Attic Mysteries. I work at the local library and am always finding books. And I'm totally excited about this new series. I grabbed all the ones I could find. Can anyone say "SELF CARE! SELF CARE! SELF CARE?!" Self care! There I said it. With winter here, the Christmas season and the 10 year death-anniversary of my Grandpa Bill, I'm going to need all the love and self care I can possible. So, today I am thankful books!  Joyfully, Katie

Katie here. So this blog is, well, as the title says... A little bit of this and that. First off... Some days I feel like I'm a fake. Or that people think I'm stronger than I am because I put on the strong face. Truth is I'm afraid to trust someone, to tell them how I'm really feeling because I'm so tired of losing people. And nothing chases people away more that weakness, right? So, I guess if I can't trust people. I have to at least have some good self care things I can do. I do like to relax... Read books or watch movies. Lately I've discovered how much I love fruit smoothies. Another thing... I am so sick and tired of being depressed, anxious, all this mental crap is. Especially knowing it will never fully go away ever!  Also... I talked about this in therapy and she said this was pretty normal for survivors. Having dreams where you feel you are being abused again. I don't know what it's called, but I'm having a lot of those nightmares. I wok...

Not sure what's going on with me.... Just in a mental mind funk and not sure how to get out. I guess my mental illness will always be there! Gonna take some gentle care! I think I just need some self care. I've just been so busy, I haven't had time for me. All my love.... Katie

Im definitely saying NO! To the new SVU. I'm working during it. But, I will not be watching the new episode. At least not for awhile. Just thinking about it, is upsetting me bad! I have to take care of me! Take gentle care, my friends! Katie