Becoming Katie Butterfly

I was molested by my neighbor. It happened from 5th-7th grade. 3 years. I didn't know what he was doing to me was wrong or illegal. I thought it was okay since he was an adult. He never did anything to cause physical pain. He was gentle. Another reason why I didn't think it was wrong. Physically, I wasn't being put in pain, but mentally...I was. I was still scared though. I never said anything until one day I told my abuser's grandson who is 3 years younger than me. Months went by after me telling him then all of a sudden, the Monday of my Spring Break in 7th grade, a detective & social worker showed up at my house. I remember my mom coming to me crying saying that these people needed to talk to me privately. I wasn't in any trouble, just be honest. My abuser's grandson's parent were divorced so he was visiting his mom. He told his mom who contacted the police. My abuser was arrested that Monday. The detective had to come back a couple weeks later becaus...

So, right now. I am going through a panic. I'm mostly feeling anger. HE should be the one that nervous, embarrassed, ashamed. NOT ME!   My on-call therapist suggested I write about how things have changed and how I'm not the same person or in that same situation. So here's goes.  1. I'm not "sick" I'm on meds that work and taking them. 2. I'm not 21 anymore. I've grown up... Matured.  3. I'm not as naive. 4. I'm just a different Katie. That's a start! How about you? How can you distract yourself? Xoxo. Katie