My heart is so touched

Today is my 27th birthday. A hard day/time of the year in regards to my depression and flashbacks from my abuse. But, I am a trooper and I am so touched by all the love and kindness people have shown me. I'm very emotional today. It all means so much but I also feel like I don't deserve all the love. That I'm still a bad person. But, that's the victim in me. So today I'm going from victim/survivor/thriver in all a matter of minutes/hours.

I hope this is a normal part of recovery and dealing with weird dates where I should be happy, and I am, but also really sad/emotional.

I bet I'm not making any sense.

But, I'm so touched and grateful for all who have shown unconditional kindness to me. You have shown me a bit of what God's love is. I think I've been feeling unworthy of His love as well.

That's all I got.

Katie

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