How Do You Self Care?

I've really been lacking on the self care lately.

But, this afternoon I working on my new room at the new place and started putting up my different collections (American Girl, Reba, DVDs)

Then I came home and lit all my candles and watched some shows I like.

Lately I've been doing reading at night but I think I will mix it up a little.

I feel like watching a good lifetime movie and maybe even a bath.

I really haven't done that in a long time. Mainly because I can never stay in very long because I feel overheated and figure it's a waste. That and the thought of it triggered me. Feeling dirty, and not wanting to see myself (just jump in the shower and get out, is what I prefer) but lately I'm thinking I need to love my body for what it is. My body isn't dirty, my bed wasn't dirty. What he did to my WAS dirty. And that's where I have to leave it.

So, maybe if I'm feeling brave, I will take a bath. I might just wait until we are officially in the new place...

Either way, self care it is!

Love and hugs,

Katie

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