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Re-traumatized.

So, as I briefly mentioned in a post yesterday, I had an unexpected Pap smear appointment come up. I started to get REALLY anxious as I waited for the appointment.

I have a hard time being touched down there by my fiancé. Let alone some stranger I never met.

She was very professional, definitely. But, it was very awkward. I mean it's awkward for non survivors. I didn't really have flashbacks, but it triggered intense anxiety. I'm okay today, still... I don't even know the word. 

Since I obviously am going to have to have them done again for health reasons,  I need to find away to approach this. 

I wonder if it will go better if the doctor knows I was abused, if it would make a difference.

I hate these feeling. Will it ever go away? 

Katie

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  1. AnonymousAugust 5, 2014 at 3:55 PM

    Ask your talk therapist about telling your doctor. I think it could only help the situation. Hang in there dear! love you! MA

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