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It's ok to hurt

I'm not going to sit around and pretend I'm not hurting anymore. That everything is ok. I'm done. It takes too much energy. So, hi. I'm Katie. I'm hurting & that's okay.

I'm hurt that my friend just ran off. And that another friend left with no explanation. I'm hurt that my friends don't have time for me. & that I feel so alone.

I'm upset that I let things go this far. It's time to take my life back even if I have to do it all by myself. 

I'm not going to let negativity suck the life out of me. I have too many positive things going for me!

And if I really sat down and made a list of the negative and positive, the positive would win by far! Gotta keep that perspective. 

Katie

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