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A list of positives.

Thank you Britt for suggesting this. I'm gonna get my butt back into gear.

Who is Katie?

Well, I'm really smart and insightful. I'm very kind and loving. I love life and I love to laugh. I'm pretty sure I invented the social butterfly. (:

I've gone through many tough things that have only made me stronger. I want to change the world. At least the things that are dear to my heart. Like the stigmas of Mental illness and sexual abuse. Like the quote says... "Be the change you want to  see in the world"

I will be an advocate, a voice for these issues until the day I die.... Which hopefully will be a long, long time.

I probably want to do TOO many things with my life. Like working at the library, working with special needs people, do something in the mental health field and my work with music.

That's really the kind of person I am.

I love with all my heart and I probably get hurt more because of that. But the world needs love. Maybe I can't fix the problems of the world but I can love people and be there for them.

That's some of who I am. Does anyone have anything to add? :)

Katie

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