Update and all that.

Hey it's Katie! I realized I haven't posted anything since Sexual Assault Awareness Month started!

Well, I'm on break at work & thought I would take a few minutes to post a quick update & all that jazz.

I have been doing much better. Still have my bad days. Still have my days of going a few steps back & then something will happen & I go forward again. I think this is common as a survivor.

And I just keep pressing on! My faith and trust in God has helped me immensely & I have a wonderful support system.

I haven't had any major flashbacks or dissociation episodes. Those only really happen when I'm really triggered by something and my body goes into protection mode. Unfortunately I can't predict when will happen but what I can do is practice self care and know that I can get through them!

I'm not sure if the next few days will trigger an episode, but I can say I'm doing the best I can to care for myself & love myself!

Also.... Many good things are happening this month.

Jeff & the kitties and I will be moving to a new apartment. Away from all the bad memories. It's a new beginning for us! & I couldn't be happier!

Here's to good things and being true to myself!

Joyfully,

Katie

Comments

The number will never be enough.

I have realized on this hell-ish journey of what they call anorexia, that the number will never be enough. I've been starving myself off and on since about February. First it was to lose about 10 lbs that I gained while my thyroid was under active. I started eating better but just ate less. I finally got back to my normal weight. And I decided I was gonna go lower. Mostly because I hate my breasts. So, I started cutting back on calories. Counting them on an app and a tracker that counted how many calories I had burned. I'm really not much of an exerciser, so I mostly just restricted what I ate, between eating normal on weekends or when with friends. Didn't want them to catch on and wanted to still enjoy myself and not put my life is jeopardy. Well, I'm at about 10 lbs away from what I called my goal weight. And the last few days I really restricted so I can finally reach the goal. I've agonized over getting help and eating right and just a constant battle with my th...

Christmas Blessings

Lame title. But, how many blog posts can I call "Merry and Bright"?! What can I say? Our first Christmas together, of course didn't go as perfect and planned out as I tried to make it, but, it was perfect. Absolutely perfect. I was surrounded by amazing family, friends and of course my husband. This was our first official Christmas together and Christmas Day was our 5-month anniversary. 5 months ago I said I do, and I'll keep on saying it. And now with the new year fast approaching I know what my goals for 2016 and beyond are. It's something I will have to work on and slowly progress with. But, I know now I don't have to do it alone, I have my wonderful and sweet husband to work with. And I can't think of anything better. This year didn't go anywhere close to as planned, it showed me some of my hardest days, it showed me some of the best. And everything in between. This is a journey I'm on, to truly being a new Creation in Christ and becoming Kati...

Thankful even when bad things happen

I am thankful I am a survivor. And I am thankful for opening up about what I've gone through. I have met some incredible people. And having them in my life is worth it. They have helped me through so many things. I'm not glad I was assaulted, but I am glad for what I've learned and how I can grow, heal and help others through this experience. That's all I got. Katie

Becoming Katie Butterfly

Search This Blog