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Being fearless is a daily choice

So today, another song, one -he- claimed to be our song came on the radio. First instinct is to say "I hate this song!" And turn it off.... Well, I was starting to do that when I made ANOTHER choice to not let him win. I turned the song, and even though I don't particularly like that song anymore anyway, I want it to be on my own terms. Today I chose fearlessness in regards to a song. Today, I won!

-Katie

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  1. KatieMay 29, 2014 at 7:29 AM

    So proud of you! Love you! ~Britt

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  2. AnonymousJune 1, 2014 at 3:21 PM

    Yes! A song is just a song! YOU decide what it means or doesn't mean to YOU! You go girl! MA

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