Self Injury Awareness Day

So, yesterday, March 1st was Self Injury Awareness Day. I decided to make a blog on this.

I self harmed from the time I was 14 until I was about 22. About 8 years and I've been completely clean for about 5 years.

I starting cutting myself as a way to deal with the depression and feelings of deep despair. I cut all through out high school.

My scars used to bother me a lot. But, now I just think of them of reminders of everything I've come through and that I'm alive and a survivor.

I survived high school, deep depression, many suicide attempts, rape, self harm.

I'm only 26 and I already feel like I've lived a full life.

But, now that all that darkness is behind me, I'm looking forward to a life of light, and endless opportunities.

Will I still have bad days? Absolutely. But, I know the worst is behind me!

I'm going to keep on living for today (and tomorrow) and kicking life's butt.

I'm not just a survivor. I AM A THRIVER. Joyfully and Fearlessly thriving!

Katie

An old picture of me from SIAD!

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