Self care and my weekend

My weekend consisted of working my job, the entertainment at the fair and our concert today. It was a lot of work, tiring, but REALLY cool and fun.

Yesterday I got to see my friends from SHEL again, hang out a little bit and listen to them perform.

& got a selfie with my buddy Eva.

Also, got to see, meet and hear the group Green River Ordinance. The best part? Getting a picture with them on their tour bus.

I don't think I will forget this experience for a long time.

And today we had our last summer concert in Columbia Park. Got a picture with Sonia Rao.

& now I'm relaxing at home, watching some Monk before bed. My last self care for the weekend is a good night's sleep.

Group tomorrow and back to work! & life goes on!

That's all I have to report on.

xoxo -Katie

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