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To forgive is to move forward



You can't stop what's done to you, you can only survive. And somewhere in the process to forgive, in order to truly move forward.

That is what I am trying to do. God is helping me and my friends.

The first helpful thing was being heard, validated. "I know that you were raped.  I also know that you survived and are taking back your life and your power."

Thanks for believing me. It's a hard thing to come forward, to say and being heard is EVERYTHING! 

I can't take back what was done, I can only learn to move forward.

Onward I go,
Katie

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